Registration

I had to register for classes early this morning. Like 12 am early.
I got in to all of the classes I wanted which is really lucky.
I had a mini heart attack when the server went down though. I think everyone did.
I've been so stressed out.
I have a paper due Monday, a speech to begin writing, and a project for math due next Friday.
I do not even know when the speech is even due yet. I just hope I don't have to give it on Tuesday. It's so terrible how stressful life has been lately. I'm ready for Thanksgiving and Christmas break.

Worries

I am so worried right now.
Worried about my friend.
Worried about school work.

I have so much work to do. I have a paper to really finish and edit. I need to do math homework. I have to make sure to do three hours a week of observation which I love because I am an education major. I'm also beginning to get worried about finals. I'm going to need to study so hard and write a lot. I need to start planning out times to do things and times that I can actually take a break because as we all know, breaks are important. I am so stressed out just thinking about everything.

What do I do?

My best friend's mom passed away last night.
I'm five hours away.
I can't do anything.
I can't even come home this weekend.
I have so much work to do for school but I'm so concerned about my friend.
She told me that she is okay but I'm still worried.
I remember how much she loved her mom. There were many times when they had problems but she still loved her.
I'm just really worried and stressed.

What should I do?

What can I do?

Maybe I’m over thinking it.

Maybe I’m not doing enough.

I really don’t know what I should do.

Seven years ago

Seven years ago I was 12 and my sister was 19.

Seven years ago my sister was a freshman in college.

Seven years ago my favorite person in the world got in to a horrible accident.

My sister got in to an accident with three of her friends. They were drinking. All four of them could have been killed.

Nothing has scared me more than when my parents told me that my big sister was in a car accident.

I pretty much vowed to myself not to even drink until I was 21. I've stuck with that. Unlike many people. I'm scared of bad judgments that I could make. I'm not saying that drinking is entirely bad. I know it's not. I'm just saying that I'm personally scared of it altogether.

Maryville Missouri

Some interesting and terrible things have been happening in the town that is my home away from home for the next four years.

The story is long but I am just going to give a very short summary.

A girl named Daisy was 14 when she was raped by a junior in high school. He left her unconscious body in her front yard. She was then made fun of and humiliated and essentially forced to leave town.

Now this happened years ago but the group Anonymous found out and are very serious about it.

Now my opinion because I am a hardcore feminist is that this is awesome. Something like this needs to not fly under the radar. It's a huge deal. People need to know about this.

By Tuesday there are supposed to be around 50 or more news outlets in town and Anonymous will be here for a demonstration.

Interesting things are happening here indeed.

Family

I’m so ready for homecoming.

Not because of the game, not because of the activities, and not even because of walk out day.

The reason I’m excited is because I get to see my family. I’m going home and I get to see my parents, my sister, my best friends. Maybe for only one day but I still get to see them.

I can’t wait. I don’t even know how to express my feelings about it. I’m just so excited.

Don’t tell anyone but I’m mostly excited about seeing the cats.

If I didn't have a boyfriend I would definitely be a cat lady…

Confidence

Confidence is key.
People say that all the time.
I have barely any confidence because I just have bad self esteem.
Sometimes I would be made fun of for my weight or people would just pick on me for the fun of it.
They thought it was funny when I got mad or upset from something they said or did.
One thing I've noticed about Northwest is that I'm the only one who has criticized me.
No one but me.
Everyone is either nice or just doesn't pay attention to me which honestly most of the time I would like.
I guess what I'm trying to say is I have bad self esteem and people here are nice.